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[20 Jan 2009|12:29am] |
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I was just looking at some pictures from July 2008. My body was pretty fit and I was a lot skinner. I've known deep down that I gained weight but now it is like reality. I'm sure I only gained 10 lbs but that's fucking ridiculous. I like food way too much! I'm going to the gym tomorrow and since it's an all women's gym I'll feel better. Here's to a new tomorrow!
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[26 May 2008|05:15pm] |
I don't know what I am doing anymore. The other day when I went to my grandmas house she asked how me and Will were and she gave me that look like I told you it wasn't going to work out. I can not stop thinking about Brandon. I'm sorry but I can't. Even though I know we aren't going to get back together. I still want to be his friends. I don't know why I am such a douche bag. I know that if I grew up having friend it would be a totally different story.
Today I woke up and started cleaning and Will was just playing poker online. Finally when he heard me putting the dishes away he wanted to help. Then he went straight back to playing poker. He is so fucking lazy I can't handle it. I was doing my laundry and I put his on the side so he flipped out. He took all his shit home...EVERYTHING. Then he was even more pissed cause I didn't want to do anything tonight and he said I wasn't trying. Desiree said anything major I want to do in my life, I need to do it now while I am young. That is so true. I just wish I could do it and know I wouldn't think I was making a mistake after I do it.
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[06 Aug 2007|10:50pm] |
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ok so its official. my family is fuckin in fuckin sane! i hate all of those mother fuckers with a passion, straight down to my grandma. fuck that stupid bitch! i hope they all rot in hell together...i know the devil already has front of the line passes for them. i dont think they would even like heaven. but then again they are so full of shit that i wouldnt be suprised if they got in and if they did it would only be to say they were there. orrrr to see the other people in there lives that for some reason stayed their friend. fuck fuck fuck fuck you alll you pieces of shit! i hope i never have to see those fake mother fuckers again!!!!! i wish i could take my parents and run away! i really really wish that and this isnt the first time so i know im not going crazy. why are people so fake? and why do people disown you for something you did but turn around and do it them selves? i have so much anger inside me right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ill let them all go love those fuckin douche bags that are on coke and fuckin speed and every other drug you can think of and tell im crazy for calling them psycho paths...i dont know where they even heard that. but if i really did say that i was being nice...fuck you all you make me sick!
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[24 Apr 2007|10:01pm] |
i wish for once i could have something positive to say...
of all the times you say i hate my life growing up, i think this time i could really honestly mean it. i wonder what life would be like if i would have stuck around certain people? once again its 10 and i didnt do one god damn thing except work. i cant live my life working and not going out and when the weekends finally come its me and my little cousin going to the beach. my mom asked me the other day who i confide in to tell my feeling to? the answer is no one. everything is bottled up inside me about to overflow and 90 percent of the shit in there is about not having any fuckin friends. where did i turn down the opposite road as everyone? in the town that i spent all of my life in, i feel like im the new girl that just moved from out of state and the only friends i have are the ones that i talk to online like they are too far to hang out with. i really dont get it.
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[14 Apr 2007|10:16am] |
i woke up too late to go to the beach. that sucks. oh well..tomorrow maybe. i need to go down there and get a hotel. my mom doesnt know im spending all this money. she think im gonna give her car insurance money but im buying a hotel alchy and herbies then im paying for my fake id. and thats 200 yikes. money is the root of all evil! i need to think of another way to get some money. im going to paltos later and thats gonna get me like 5 bucks...crap! i should have a yard sale...or something...i would start selling things on ebay again but thats so much work trying to make people happy! i was thinking about donating blood plasma...haha...im desperate for reals!
were having a baby shower here today! how exciting...i have to go pee but im trying to stay in my room as long as i can so i dont have to clean. haha
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[26 Nov 2006|09:40pm] |
i am so confused right now its not even funny. there is this place i go to get things for my work and everytime i go there is this guy that is so cute...so i told the other guy to give him my number and he could call me if he wants. so then one day i get a text and it siad you looked really nice today and it was that cute guy...so then like a week later i text him and we were talking and he has a gf but it never seemed to bother him cause he would always be like flirty...and i told him to text me on friday if he could come over and he never did do saturday i text him with thanks and he siad "sorry my gf never left so i couldnt come over" and i just said you could have told me. so then today i text him with "do you feel bad" and he thought i ment, do you feel bad for not comming over and really i ment, do you feel bad cause you have a girlfriend and thats why you didnt call me. then i said "i know you dont want to come over, im over it but whats your deal?" he said, it would be eaiser if he didnt have a gf...duh...so then when i asked him why he text me the first time he siad he just wanted to tell me i looked nice...(if you like your gf that much not to come over then why the fuck are you texting a girl telling her she looks nice?) and he was like, i thought you were whatever about it and i said i was confused and i was trying to understand...and he said i was being pushy and he said he had to go. and i called him sensitive and he was like "im not sencitive...i got to go" haha i hate text messages cause i dont know how to take things and he doesnt. espically when we nevertalked on the phone. but its like now hes thinking one thing and im still like totally confused! im like whatever but i know hes like ugh wtf...so now i feel dumb to go into his work...
advice needed much
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[28 May 2005|11:54pm] |
So it's safe to say that we've been here before;
Heart torn out, down for the count and still come back for more.
This lesson is learned too well.
Though, only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed.
Have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his.
It's Time to say enough is enough, you would be so better off.
You love him but tough because it's not coming back from him.
You can't win.
Stop expecting change, he's just a lost cause that you're waiting on.
Take a look around, you could have anyone.
So leave undeserving him.
It only hurts at first.
But then you will find someone to give you everything you want.
Try not to go running back to him.
So it goes unsaid that we've been here before.
Lonely nights and endless fights and sleeping on the floor.
And he's sorry, so the story goes.
It's read and replayed and ends the same way
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[28 Sep 2004|01:13pm] |
I know I said I wouldn’t call the next guy as much as I called Trevor but I am going to stop. I just need to get it out of my system. Vanessa said not to live according to what the psychic said but I don’t think you can have what she said come true unless you believe. I just really like alex and I want thinks to work out. so imma give it a week and then I’ll call him. I just hope that he answers. I text him last night I hope he got it. I said sorry for calling so much I told him that I was annoying and I think I said something else but I don’t remember. I hope that’s not why he’s not calling back. how do I ruin things that are so good.
Trevor called last night I think I forgot I told him to call. I'm surprised he called but I was like you called? Why?a dn he was like fine I wont call. And I said no I didn’t mean that and asked him how he liked his new job and what they did last night he sounded annoyed but he called me. I think he just wanted to hear that I found someone that wanted to hook up with him. so I was like well call tomorrow bye and as I was saying bye he was like I am gonna go and the heheard me saying bye so he said by and hung up. my mom doesn’’t like Anthony cause of the whole fair thing.
But I guess Allison knows about me and brian hanging out.
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| bye bye |
[22 Feb 2004|02:19am] |
i like live journal minus the drama. im making my LJ friends only. i think i only have like 3 friends and it is better that way cause then people aren't starting drama. sorry to those who didn't make the cut. jk. i have my reasons! like...
1. people think they can talk crap about my life when they cant even pass high school or continuation school rather.
2. people have big mouths and their lives revolve around gossip, like the people they are telling can't read it them selves.
3. i'd rather not here what some people have to say.
4. some people are two faced and talk all this crap about people and say you are their best friend. go get a life!
5. basically i dont like very many people. i like when things are private.
everything else along those lines.
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[14 Sep 2003|12:13am] |
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now i can't wait till monday either!sd;fsdkfjlsdkfjlskdfj
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[19 Aug 2002|02:15pm] |
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jeni is out on vacation right now.she doesnt know i made this for her hehe!
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